eThis is for all those who wonder why I am the way I am sometimes)
I need to eat.
When I am hungry it is as if I am no longer Rylee. Is this a medical thing? I know this hanger thing has become a popular term now but I feel I am dealing with something pretty critical here. I look back at the things I have said and done when I was hungry and have ....the slightest regret. Its crazy because I don't even let myself get that hungry! I dont. I would never. I bring snacks everywhere.
There are many instances I can look back on and identify my behaviour as nothing other than -
Tip - artist to artists .. Don't paint hungry. You may end up throwing your painting in the sink and aggressively start cleaning around your house with a sponge. . And refusing any offer of food by your loved one because your already too hungry to be accepting.
When I am hungry I get quiet. Like when your playing mind games with someone and you want them to ask you whats wrong. I am not even trying to get your attention, I just cannot even function properly enough to tell you that I'm starving.
You know you've got a thing with food when the first thing your dad mentions about his daughter to his friends is that " She can EAT!" I know that most people who haven't seen me but heard of me through my dad think that I am well over 140 pounds. I don't mind... Hes proud. Were good.
I am not sure I will ever be able to properly monitor my eating habits. I never have had to really. I eat when I start to ignore people and that seems to work for me so far! No health problems as it stands! Maybe just a few broken friendships. Well shit. Life goes on.
And to wrap this up I will get ready because at 7 PM tonight I will be going out to eat.... with my dad.
I'm thinking......... Some sort of sandwich. wowwoo