Well that was just what I needed.
A few months ago I found myself drifting a lot. I would be present and appear to be healthy as normal but I was artistically frustrated. All my creative edge and juice hid from me, I found myself to be internally dull, weak and lost in routine. I needed a new project but at the time didn't realize what sort of project I needed. I started doing these wacky digital portraits in the hopes of feeling a connection to people. I did of course feel a connection but I didn't realize the importance of physical presence and living conversation. I am happy it lead to me my next realization.
Hidden. I have always wanted to do a personal show, displaying only my own artwork but first time around I wanted to have an art community. I don't really have a large art family so I felt I wanted to bring one together so I called on a few friends. Some college friends, high school and those I admire. I love bringing people together, no matter their differences.
Having the show was really emotional for me. I almost burst into tears a number of times. I know I'm weird, it doesn't take much, anything that makes me way to happy makes me want to sob. It was really encouraging for me that so many people came to see my show, it was bigger than any amount of likes I could ever get with a portrait. I should say it was essential to my entire life's purpose. Everyone got to really be with me and what I love to do.
The #Hiddenshow was an artist collaboration revealing nature in all it's majestic forms. In most of my work I reflected my excitement of the forests and landscapes up north. Hidden was a perfect fit for a gallery in the heart of a city but yet at the edges of a creek. Even though the show was mainly aimed at the beauty of nature I feel there was a strong relationship to the artists stories. Hidden in our own ways and lives and just making efforts in every which way we can to feel seen and loved. Or to see others. Community.
A bit about the owners. Two lovely people. Steve and Lily. Two complete strangers to me at first, trusting me with their newly built gallery. Lily has been printing my canvased portraits in her workshop located where the gallery is. When I would go to pick up my prints I would see their building and lurk around and admire her fathers hung artwork. She mentioned their future plans of putting on shows but I don't think they expected I would later ask to do a show in december. Me, some stranger, asking to do a birthday show a month from then. I figured why not, I really need something to look forward to, a new project and purpose for this month. She replied with a kind "yes!" she was very excited. Things took off from there. Steve and Lily were so great to me, my family and friends. It goes to show the power of asking. Which always falls into the irony that I had been listening to the audio version of
"the Art of Asking by Amanda Palmer" while tending to plants all day during the week at the greenhouse and planning my show.
A great read/listen for anyone. ever.
To conclude my thoughts about this recent endeavour I would just like to acknowledge my freshly strengthened trust in people. How I just admire anyone ever that has made me feel special. Or just simply anyone who has been truly kind and can really put themselves aside for others. Thankfulness for everything that connects and projects kindness.